It is time to confront my fears and insecurities to see if God really did dis-own me, or if I’ve just been blinded by circumstances. Did I put up a measuring stick to God that He can’t measure up to? Is it possible to expect too much, or too little of God?
Can I change who I have become without going back to the old measuring sticks I use to measure life by, myself by, and God by?
This just might be more than one post...We’ll see once I get going.
I have a wonderful family. A husband who loves and adores me. Married 21 years this June. He loves and cherishes our children. We have four amazing kids. All very talented in many divers ways and areas. None the same, but all great. They know how to have fun but are still respectful of each other. They are good kids. Honest, considerate, loving, and faithful.
I had a great and easy childhood at home. Not perfect of course. But drama was not part of our lives. My folks worked, we ate regular meals, had curfews, and chore days. We saw our Grandparents regularly; Aunts, Uncles and Cousins a few times a year. Lived in the same house all my growing up years too. My Dad still lives there. I felt secure, protected, and cared for. (Why don’t I remember that feeling?)
Today we live in a great neighbourhood, a nice house with enough bedrooms, though if I had my way I’d have a couple more bedrooms to house some 20-something friends for cheap. We have always managed to pay our bills eventually, even without full time jobs. We have never missed a mortgage payment. We eat good food, and are never hungry or in want for food or clean water. We may not have the latest thing, or the most stylish clothes but we are well clothed, all six of us.
Physically we are all doing rather well now. Hubby’s last heart surgery was well over 2 years ago. Our doctors have been keeping him busy with regular tests and check-ups so that we always know if something arises. The kids have not broken any bones in a few years. All four kids having Osteogenesis Imperfecta (or Brittle Bones) has made life very busy at times but there have been no fractures in at least 3 years. YAY!!!
Our third child was found just over a year ago to have a hole in her heart. It is now fixed and she will have no issue for the rest of her life. If the hole had not been found if would have shortened her life to about 30+ years old. Now she has the opportunity to live a long full life without possible complications from heart/lung issues.
Me? We’ll I’ve always been the non-issue person in the family. Rarely sick from even colds or flus, taking care of everyone. That was until 2 years ago. But now, my heels are no longer painful. My knees are still sore, but better. Enough so that I can now walk 40 minutes. I’m still having issues but they are so much better. And, I’m on the way to better health. I’ve decided to take care of myself (huge deal for me). I have joined a local gym and have been visiting there 3 to 4 times a week.
We live in an amazing country. Canada is big, open, full of opportunities and clean. Our water is clean, our air is clean and our streets are clean (for the most part). We have “free” healthcare. Our infrastructure is great across the country, and our economy is fairly stable compared to much of the world.
Tis true! I am very blessed. When going through the daily problems we all as humans have I will remember that God has blessed me with much.
What has God blessed you with?
